Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Trust

I'm scared...Terrified...Anxious. No, I'm not talking about putting in the car
seat for the first time, I'm talking about the first time I let someone watch my
daughter other than myself or my wife. It happened when I took my wife out for
Valentine's Day to a Wizards game against the Spurs(she loves them...really she does). I called home every 10-15 mins and texted in between. All I got in response was she is fine Kevin, stop calling!! My anxiety was ramped up even more when I called once to hear my lil girl screaming in the background. Finally I recieved a text that said, "she's asleep now". I knew she was in good hands, but that first time was so mentally rough. I realized as a parent you have to expose your child to
different situations in order for them to grow and to let yourself grow as a
parent. The next challenge I remember was when I let my best-friend drive her
around. My hand was forced. It was, "Kevin, either you let me take her on
errands or I can't watch her!" I remember putting the car seat in and I felt the
panic setting in. Even though my best-friend, one of the best drivers I know,
was behind the wheel I was about to change my mind. Sophia looked at me as I
buckled her in and she looked around the car like, ummmmm...where are you going?
I closed the door and she was fine and I had to get over it. Of course, I wanted
to get in my car and follow them but decided against it. Interacting with
different people and their rules help can help children understand some
boundaries they take for granted at home, so it is something that should happen
every now and then. I remember when the daycare lady was taking her to the zoo,
I said "call me when you get there and call me when you leave." She said "I
will, but you know when she is with me, she is like one of my kids." I replied,
" I know but no matter where my daughter is or who she is with, she is always my
responsibility." Btw she spent the night at a friends house recently and I slept
fine for about an hour that night. I'm getting better as the years roll along.
Two so far and counting...

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